...makes me really sad on the inside.

FOR FUCK'S SAKE. IF YOU CAN'T STAND THE HORRIBLE QUALITY OF FANFICTION NOWADAYS, I DON'T KNOW, READ A BOOK? ONE THAT'S BEEN PUBLISHED?

QUIT WHINING ABOUT POOR GRAMMAR; IT IS NOT GOING TO IMPROVE. GODDAMN!

GET A LIFE.

OR DON'T, AND STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT IT.

...and one of them is that fanfiction will get you NO where. And it's pathetic, really, the amount of time and thought I used to put into fandom. I used to get actually stressed out about what happened in the fandom world. Now I see that I was just focusing my energy on some really useless shit.

If I write anything, it'll be one-shots. Yeah, I've abandoned all the stories I was working on. And I don't care.

I'm writing an actual book, if any of you wanna read it. Comment and I'll send it to you, I guess.

If anyone cares...

...since I seem to have acquired some actual friends.

All my fans (yeah, all none of them) suffer while I dance in jubilation. Haha, oh...

Anyway.

I don't know.

...this is pointless. =D

But it may never see the light of day (or the internet, really). But it's not really original.

Half of the characters are based on people I know or really, have seen. Most of my friends will end up being in the story, hidden behind altered descriptions and maybe (probably not) changed names.

But yeah.

It should be pretty awesome. You guys want to see a snatch of it, or no?

I found this on fuckyou_mcr and had to share with everyone. No clue who it's by, or where it was originally posted, but I love it. So badly. You have no clue.

( Tentacle-Incest-Rape-Babies! )

So.

Holy shit.

My Chemical Fucking Romance.

Last night.

BEST. SHOW. EVER.

First time in a mosh pit. I nearly died. =D

Billy Talent is actually kind of amazing. Didn't enjoy Drive By, was too busy being smashed by guys that looked like sumo wrestlers. Srsly. But it was worth it.

Ugh. Mikey wore his 'Mikey Fuckin Way' shirt, Gerard was all, "IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE UNIFORM, YOU CAN'T BUY THE COOKIES," (I don't know either. I think he was talking about Girl Scouts?), Ray was his usual Godly self, Bob's hair is insanely long (and equally awesome), and Frank seemed...off. I don't know.

It was still the best show ever. They played "Hang 'Em High" and "Desert Song" and the Black Parade B-Sides and "Headfirst for Halos". Ugh.

AMAZING.

I HAVE SO MUCH LOVE FOR THOSE JERSEY BOYS. NOT EVEN FUNNY.

...I bought a shirt that says "T.ORO" on it and has a pic of Ray. He's the Torosaurus. Get it? T. Rex? T. ORO? Fuckin' brilliant. Couldn't buy the "Mikey Fuckin Way" shirt 'cause it says fuck on it. Oh well. I have more Toro love anyway.

=D =D =D =D =D

...if the words "No offense, but..." or "I don't mean to be hypocritical, but..." ever come out of your mouth, chances are, you're about to say something very offensive or make a hypocrite out of yourself.

So STFU and GTFO.

Have the balls to say what you gotta say, and mean it. None of this "Politically correct" bullshit. You're going to offend someone no matter what you say, so why censor yourself?

Be honest, and say what you mean. I don't have time for anything other than that.

[/rant]

I've been trying to convince myself that it's completely normal to have the hobbies that I do. Slash-writing and such, you know. But then I've realized that more than half of the people that dwell in fandom are either suicidal, bipolar, or on anti-depressants. Or they have other problems that I don't even want to get into.

If I'm not any of the above things...

What am I?

EDIT- I have come to the conclusion that I am just what I suspected all along: completely AWESOME. =D

So as to not rape your friend's lists, I will put this under a cut. Also because I'm hoping that people who are just stumbling upon my journal skip over this, because they don't want to take the time to click into the cut. I'm not sure how many friends I have on lj, but I figure, I have more than five now. So...time to spread my incredibly literate and well-worded insanity!

Warnings: Language, maybe controversial, long-winded rants about the bands Aiden, Silverstein, Hawthorne Heights, and Bayside...

( Making connections that aren't there... )

Why the fuck does no one like Aiden?

Seriously.

They're a legitimate band with some pretty fucking awesome music, and EVERYONE HATES THEM!

WTF, WORLD?

Why is everyone always ragging on them, making fun of them, and hating on those pretty boys?!

Okay, so maybe I'm a bit biased. But I fell in love with wiL Francis after I listened to their song Die Romantic. BAH.

Go buy their CD, Our Gang's Dark Oath. Not only is the music amazing, but dude. That CD title is fucking GENIUS.

STOP HATING ON AIDEN.



THEY'RE COOL TOO!

/rant

Like, really, really, really hate?

When people spam my posts with "FC?!?!?!"

Because, fuck, guys.

I don't play that shit.

I'm not going to congratulate you.

I'm not going to give you "vam cookies".

You don't deserve a reward for leaving the most brainless and least thought-out comment ever.

I hope all you "FC" monsters see this.

And I hope you stop it.

Forever.

Alright, fuck. I hope some of the shittier writers see this, because it's pissing me off. This is me, telling the fandom to improve. Because if everyone followed these rules, fandom would be such a better place.

Warning: Over-usage of the word "shit"

( My Angry Rant )

I'll probably add more. Anybody have anything else to add? Any other things that makes you mad/sad/cry/yell-at-inanimate-objects?

And I don't care if I sound mean. If you think I'm mean, you need to get the hell off the internet.

*cries*

I think you should follow the cut. Because underneath are some of the most introspective and philosophical lyrics known to man. A genius wrote the song. Now, go download it and listen to it as you read these amazingly gorgeous lyrics. Strong Bad - Trogdor. Now, click the cut and enjoy...

( TROGDOR!!! )

And again I ask: does anyone even read this shit? For seriously. Anyone?

...I'm going to start posting stories on lj. Now, I'm not sure about chaptered shit, but I'm going to start posting oneshots. Once I've built a minor fan-base (at least five comments on a story...my warped view of a fan-base) I may begin to post a chaptered story. I'm not exactly sure how the whole linking-to-previous-chapters thing works, so yeah, I'm a bit wary (does that make sense in this context?) of posting.

Anybody have tips on that? Anyone have any awesome comms that don't suck that I should join? Is anyone even reading this?

This just made me love the band Aiden even more:

There is no real me. Only an entity. Something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours, and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are even comparable, I simply...am not...there.

It's the intro to their song 'Knife Blood Nightmare' and I adore it. I just love how theatrical they are. I'd totally buy tickets to one of their concerts, if I was allowed.

Too bad my dad thinks Aiden is Satanic.

*shrugs* Even though they're clearly not. (My dad thinks all my music is Satanic. It's 'devil music'. *laughs* That's my dad for ya...)

EDIT: Why did no one decide to mention, or even notice, that the beginning is actually from American Psycho? *facepalm*

Hi. Do you read my stories? Do you wanna be my friend?

( Idiotic, Pathetic, Stupid )

*bows out gracefully*

Still not accepted. Anyone know how long that normally takes? DAMMIT TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been...three hours. Damn, damn, DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had to put somethin' in my journal. It was all empty and sad...so here I am! Posting for no reason...*sighs* I have no life, guys. I had to choose between myspace and a lj. And what do I choose? lj, in which I know NO ONE!!!!

What's wrong with me? I'm too...antisocial for myspace shiznit, I'm afraid. I don't know if anyone's reading this, hell, I don't know if my mychemicalslash posting has gone up. Dammit. I want it to, but I dunno if the mods, like, accepted it.

But, I swear, I will have fans by the end of this month. I swear it. You all will LOVE me. LOVE ME!!!!!

This I swear...